The porcelain figurine is somersaulting through the air. It’s a little boy wearing glockenspiel. The mallets in his chubby hands are positioned at right angles, about to come down to peeng-pong against the bars. His eyes are wide, his smile jovial, when his head is smashed in by the wall.

“I always hated these fucking Hummels,” my sister Harry says, picking up a little Heidi-looking shepherd girl.

“I always hated you!” I say. I wheeze. I’ve been smoking all day. Just because I wanted to know what it felt like. My lungs feel like they’ve been wrung out, like they’re soggy, nasty dish sponges.

That makes her laugh, short and loud. Her arm winds up and she lets go. The antique rolls off her fingers, though, and arcs to the floor instead of the wall, bouncing a few times on the carpet. I look out the window. “It’s getting shitty out there.”

For a few seconds, we are both quiet as we stare outside. The wind is getting harder, making the leaves go white as they flip over. They think it’s just a storm coming. They are sadly mistaken.

The sky is softly glowing with purple light. It makes me think of those skeezy lounges you see in ’70s and ’80s movies, where there’s frosted glass and violet backlighting and white leisure suits.

I break the silence. “What band will you miss not having seen live?”

Harriet walks into the kitchen and pulls out a stack of plates with one hand. They immediately tip and shatter on the floor, loud. She yells over the impact, “Dave Matthews Band. You?”

“Uh, lame.” I take a sip from a cloyingly sweet wine cooler. I would have been 21 in seven months if all this weren’t happening. “Radiohead.”

She disappears into the other room, then reappears. “Fuck. I was going to turn on OK Computer, but I forgot there isn’t any power.”

I laugh, tipsy. “Seriously? You forgot?”

The news reported what was happening two days ago. I was at school, and Harry was living with her loser boyfriend. We both came home, to the carcass of the house that belonged to our parents. And we cried. A lot and for a long time. Until the power went out, then we screamed.

Our parents had gone off to backpack in Europe. No contact.

Harry’s boyfriend had just never come back to their apartment. When we finally calmed down and realized that the world wasn’t ending, like, at that exact moment, she called him and left this long, horrible voicemail, full of all the terrible things she thought about him and probably a few she hadn’t thought until the moment he left her alone, when the rogue star was going to destroy the Earth.

“I couldn’t be there, all alone. How depressing would that have been?”

She sits down on the floor next to me. Her long legs stretch out to what looks like a foot past mine. She’s a loose ragdoll, all of her destructive energy spent. Outside, something cracks and falls over. I wonder if there are other people, in their houses, doing what we’re doing.

“It’s like we’re all in the Titanic,” I say. “All the lifeboats are gone. Now we’re just…afloat.”

The house sways for a moment, and we grab each other’s hands, so tight I make a little squeal between my teeth. But then it stops, so we let go.

Harry says something, a little too quietly and mumbly for me to hear. I elbow her. “Do what now?”

“Did you mean what you said?” she asks again, louder. She presses the heels of her hands against her forehead and pushes her red hair back. Her skin is speckled with freckles. I used to think they looked awful when we were younger but now I am jealous. Because I am pale, and my red hair is so dark it’s pretty much just a flavor of brown. “That you’ve always hated me.”

I don’t entirely remember saying that, but I do give it some thought. “No. I mean, you were a brat when we were growing up. You made things a lot harder for me than they could have been. But I think that’s what sisters do. At least sisters that have relationships with one another anyway.”

She nods. “I guess. I could have been nicer.”

“You could have been a LOT nicer.”

“Okay, okay, shut up.”

In one of the back rooms, a window breaks, and I can just make out a faint roar beyond the expanse of our neighborhood, our town, our county. I try to pop my ears, thinking it’s the pressure changing, but it’s getting harder to breathe.

Harry gets up and pulls me to my feet. “Come on. I’m tired. Let’s go to bed.”

We both stumble down the hall – the walls are shaking, and in their foundation, I’m sure they’re buckling and breaking – and go into what used to be our shared room. We close the door, and somehow it feels like it makes everything that’s happening a little more dull. Like we’re away from it, in here.

I start getting into the bed as Harry closes the blinds. There’s still that glow, that strange lavender star, but the room looks bright in a way that to our eyes seems natural. Like when you wake up the morning after it snows, and the sun is bouncing off the sugar coating of winter.

“Hey, man,” she says, as I’m about to get comfortable. “Take your shoes off.”

I roll my eyes, let my head loll back and groan. “Seriously?”

“Seriously. It’s nasty, you turd.”

I kick off my converse and get under the covers before my toes get cold. Harry gets in behind me. My eyes are wide open, staring at the ceiling. I feel like I’m in middle school again. The room is practically untouched, and there are pictures of bands from the nineties and a movie poster for Beauty and the Beast. I grab one of a dozen teddy bears that are against the wall and curl into a ball.

“Thanks for staying and hanging out,” I hear Harry say into my hair. She has the tail of my shirt in one hand, and she pulls it when something loud crashes outside.

The bed is warm, and I squeeze my eyes shut. “Thanks for showing me where Mom and Dad kept their old wine coolers.”

“No problem.” She has yanked the blanket over our heads. I feel weightless in the dark.

“Goodnight!” she yells over the din of destruction.


What is Change? or, Fifteen Minute Fiction: Day 1

Yesterday, I went into the office for a team meeting. We have these once a month, and members of our team will present a general business topic. This month, the presentation centered around “change.”

Generally, I’m great when it comes to change. I love getting put into new situations, and I’ll try anything just about once. I really enjoy getting special projects, and I thrive under pressure when I get called to do something out of my norm. As they talked about the ways different people handle variations in their routine and schedule, I felt very comfortable. “I’m just fine with this,” I said to myself. “Throw anything at me. I can handle it. Nooooo problem.”

After the presentation, we were given an exercise to do as a group. We divided up into teams of 3-4 people. Each circle had a notebook and pen. The task was simple: write a story.

Ah, I said to myself. Finally, something I can really do.

So, working with my teammates, we started writing a narrative about two people who lived in a house with a cat. Just as we brought in the narrative hook – the fact that one of these people wanted (dun dun dun!) a dog – one of the facilitators took our notebook away. Then, they split up our team. Then, they gave us another notebook.

This was not what I signed up for.

While I knew it was all in good fun and that it was supposed to be a learning experience, I started getting very tense! When we were talking about change, the idea was supposed to be in relation to easy things — like work. Work is easy. It shouldn’t be about art. Especially my art.

By the second and third point the notebook got taken away, I was getting vocal.

“Loud” might even be a better word for it.

After the exercise was over, though, it really got me to thinking. Sure, it’s easy to look at the terms you hear at a job – time management, change, stress, communication – and feel like you can “master” how they apply in a cubicle, but what about when those things factor into things that are important to you? Like your writing or relationships or family? There may come a time when you can’t just yell about it…

One idea I had to challenge myself as a writer was to start doing 15 Minute Fiction writing. I made up the following rules:

1. I had to use a prompt from a book. I could only use one. No fair skipping around. For tonight, I used today’s date from “A Writer’s Book of Days” by Judy Reeves.

2. 15 minutes. No more, no less. I had to keep typing so long as the clock was ticking.

3. I then had to share it here, with all you lovelies. No matter how bad it might be.

This was a lot of fun, but it definitely embodied the challenge of change. Let me know what you think! If you try it, let me know!

The prompt was just, “Once, when no one was looking…” I went crazy with it.

Wednesday Off

Once, when no one was looking, Wednesday took a vacation.

Tuesday happened. It was very pleasant and breezy, a nice reprieve from the rainy gloom of Monday. Everyone was getting into the swing of the week, committing to their duties, feeling like they had recovered from the weekend. Seats were a bit warmer, more comfortable. It was the way every week should be.

But when the sun was setting, Wednesday decided that maybe the weekend would be nice to see for once. So as everyone went to sleep that night, Wednesday chased the sun around once and they laughed as Thursday blinked into existence.

It’s surprising, what can happen on a Wednesday. It’s the apex of the rollercoaster drop, it’s the main course of the week, it’s the bridge in the song you love. And when Wednesday skipped out on everyone, people felt it.

Wednesday was sitting with Saturday and Sunday, enjoying cocktails, when the complaints started coming in. People felt cheated, like someone had taken the filling out of their cake, the fortune out of their cookie.

“Why should I feel bad?” Wednesday mused. “Everyone’s always talk about how great the weekend is. Nobody says, ‘I can’t wait to make plans for Wednesday!’ Have you ever heard someone say, ‘I love to be out on the town Wednesday night’? Because I haven’t.”

“That’s because you’re reliable,” Saturday replied, checking the agenda book sitting on the table. Every weekend was booked solid. “Folks out there are desparate for the weekend because they feel like their time is going to be stolen from them.”

“Their precious free time,” Sunday added, taking a long pull of a martini.

“And everybody hates Monday. Tuesday and Thursday are just place markers,” Saturday went on. “Don’t tell them I said that.”

“It’s really sad. I wouldn’t want to be either of the T’s,” Sunday said, head shaking at the thought.

“But you, dear,” said Saturday, mojito in hand. “You’re Wednesday. Right in the middle. You fill the world with hope for something better coming, like the worst is behind them.”

Sunday patted Wednesday’s shoulder, nodding sagely in agreement.

“I suppose,” said Wednesday, finishing a Mai Tai. “Well, I guess that’s settled, then. No more vacations for me.”

“Or any of us. Not for a long, long time, I reckon,” Sunday agreed.

And as quickly as the ruckus over the loss of Wednesday had started, it was over. Thursday took its place in line and come the following week, Wednesday walked in, please and content.

For now.