I just got power back after 24 hours, because someone hit a pole in my neighborhood. I also lost my computer profile. I am freaking exhausted. It feels like the universe is conspiring against me. But I’m still kicking. I finished my Christmas cards in the dark. I wrote a lot. I had a friend who could come and pick me up and give me a place to recharge my phone and get work done. It could always be worse. Keep looking forward, y’all. You can do it.
At this point, as we’re making the mad dash towards the finish, it’s tempting to say, “I’ll just eat whatever I can get my hands on” or “I can sleep after this is all done.” Although there certainly are concessions that have to be made, it is even more crucial during crunch-time to take care of yourself as much as possible. That means eating some damn vegetables, and getting to bed each night. Sure, this may not be the best time to try that juice cleanse that your aunt keeps bringing up, but you should at least try to keep your body from double-crossing you when you need it most.
We’re getting closer to the end, here. The last week. If you’re like me – planning a trip, finishing everything, balancing day to day stuff – then you’re probably starting to feel the pressure. At this point, it’s easy to make excuses as to why to avoid priorities and the dreaded to do list. But this is the one time I will suggest this: picture yourself on December 26 (or whenever the holiday is over for you). Imagine it all being over. You did it. You’re done. You’re at home with your pants off, taking a breath because it’s all finished. It’ll be here before you know it. This will seem like nothing in no time. Hold on to that future you.
Don’t give up hope. The world may be dark, maybe getting darker, but you’re still here. The sun is never gone forever. Even though you may think but there’s no way that you can continue, you can. Don’t get caught up in the tangle of the little things but also don’t let the giants swallow you. You are very significant. You matter. Live.
Take some time today to acknowledge the things that you’ve gotten done over the past two weeks. Don’t look at your ‘to do’ list, but instead create a ‘done’ list (why did I want to write ‘to done’? That’s silly…). Even if you just mentally stop to take stock of what you’ve accomplished to this point, do it. Give yourself that pat on the back. You deserve it. You’re doing a great job, and you’re going to be okay.
A bit of a follow-up to yesterday, but on the other end of it. As much as this holiday may be about the act of giving, there is grace in receiving as well. There will be times when those around you will want to give you something out of affection or friendship, and it is tempting to decline or to explain why you didn’t give them something or to make a blanket statement on why you don’t want anything. Though it may be difficult to do so, try to let go of your reservations. Respond kindly. Acknowledge the act with gratitude and joy in the moment. You may never know how much that means to someone.