Remember how I was talking about the whole holiday letdown bit? Yeah, one of the side effects is depression. Not exactly fiery poops or death, but depression really sucks.
I have suffered from depression since puberty, and its hyperactive cousin anxiety has been around even longer than that. Even after that long, I’m still not used to knowing when it’s around. Suddenly, I’m just frustrated and I don’t want to do anything or go anywhere. My mind goes all out to ridiculous places. I suddenly question everything: my job, my home, my friends, my entire life. It’s like everything in me assumes that I made some huge mistake along the way, and now how I feel is a consequence of that.
It’s so not true, y’all.
It’s easy enough to make lists of things to help you out of a funk, but when you don’t realize that that’s where you are, you may as well not have them at all. However, here are some of the things I say to myself that help:
– You are more than this feeling in this moment.
– You do not deserve this anymore than you deserve a headache or the flu.
– You’re not going to remember this. What you will remember is the things you still go and do even when you feel like this.
– Just take one step at a time. Do this thing now. Then do this. It may not be fun, but when it’s over, it’ll be better.
Anybody else struggle with depression? Anything that helps you?
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